Crashed Bridge!

One Herculean Task have been lifted off from my list of school responsibilities. That being said, Happy New Year!

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It has been one hell of a ride for our FYP journey. There were countless moments that I wish my team and I don’t have to go through. There were uncounted moments as well that I enjoyed together and I wish that such moments would prolong till the last day of our FYP. But smooth sea does not create a skillful sailor. 

We have officially ended our Final Year Project and I can’t express how light I feel. Gone are the gloomy days of painstakingly chionging for completing FYP reports, online logbook and creating the Poster and whatnot. The days where I can physically feel the workload of FYP and having to deal with the emotional turmoil set in me from the scoldings from our supervisors and TSOs are the thing of the past. THE PAST!! Dobby has no master. Dobby is a free elf! 

Hahaha!

I think my team did ‘okay’ when presenting in front of the first 2 assessors. The first lady assessor was great. We managed to answer her questions professionally. The second one, Faci Ashray (he is my IIP liason officer! What a small world!) was the best amongst all three because he read up our poster on his own and ask questions along the way which saves us a lot of trouble and time! Questions he asked were manageable and the team and I are able to answer everything. 🙂

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And so we thought we could handle the last assessor since we ‘nailed’ the first two… so we ‘thought’ we could perform as good (or even better) as our previous ones…

For the last assessor,we called him ‘Yong Tau Fu’ because we can’t remember his name and it is pronounced somewhere along the nickname we have given him.

And unlike Yong Tau Fu, a pleasant dish to eat, questions asked were far from pleasant. Err… Damn! I think he found our weak spot and questioned us thoroughly on that spot. And I knew at once every single one of us is screwed because the day before our FYP evaluation, we have discussed in great detailed and have fortunately (& unfortunately -.-) found out that there are certain things in our project that we didn’t do and thus we cannot make a certain statement because there is no raw data to back up our statement. So we berpakat to avoid that area and don’t touch at all. I guess we did pretty well for the first two presentations considering they did not talk about our weak spot. I think it was an unfortunate moment when Yong Tau Fu managed to ‘sniff’ the ugly weak spot. During the intervention, I have this vision whereby our project ( a cool project and not mistakenly a leceh one) symbolize as bridge, connecting us to a new land that promise us better opportunities. We (my team mates and I) are on the end of the bridge ready to cross. However, this bridge is not a complete one. It looks sturdy but there are certain areas, if walked on the wrong part, the whole bridge will given in. That is our weak spot. So during the assessment, when Yong Tau Fu drilled questions on our weak spot, it is like as if he drilled on the weak spot of the bridge, a very very risky thing to do because if the other structure of the bridge cannot support this weak area, there goes our journey to the ‘promised land’. So yep! I have the vision that the stupid weak spot give way no matter how much we try to avoid  walking on the weak areas of the bridge. The bridge crumbles.

I felt disappointed with the outcome of our FYP evaluation. Really. All it takes is only one person to drill on the correct area to crash our bridge. Can’t blame him though because at the end of the day it is our fault for not making ‘weak spot’-proof bridge.

So yeap! But there’s nothing can be done because what’s done is done. Tried to cheer the team up but well…*sigh*

Saw Ye En’s team ( who also share the same FYP presentation room with us as well) on our way down.  I want to express how thankful I am to have them around as friends also! SERIOUSLY! When our request to use such-and-such machines during experimentation period got nowhere or fly into right ear come out from the left, if it wasn’t their team that help us out to manage the FTIR, UV Spec and NMR machines… I don’t know what would become of us.

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So we with heavy feet, we went to TRCC to have our ‘celebratory’ meal. Yay. The rest of the team went to watch movie afterwards while I went home. Hope they catch a lovely and nice movie.

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I had a deep sleep that I personally think such rest can last me for 2 days of non-stop work. That’s how exhausted and sad I was.

Well, the other day, Vinny said that she suddenly have a lot of free time on her hand. This was somewhat how our conversation goes.

Me: Do you have anything to do later or are you in a rush?

Vinny: Nope, nothing to do later and not rushing. I suddenly feel that I have so much time on my hand.

Me: Must be that FYP takes a lot of your time eh?

Vinny: Yeah hah! Now that FYP is over, I feel so empty now..

Me: Hahahah! There is no life goal to work towards since FYP is over. HAHAHA! FYP OVER, NO GOAL IN LIFE!

We had a hearty laugh afterwards.

STUDENT LIFE GOAL: UT3 = Grade A!

All in all I hope for the best now lah. No point grieving over something that you can’t change. SO yep! CRASHED BRIDGE! Hopefully the river below brings us to better promised land (Please not waterfall!!). InshaAllah!

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Gerek Day!

It has been an exhausting week; report submission, UTs, completing team assignments, dealing with faulty software and studying antibiotics for gdp.
To say that I am ‘tired beyond words’ is a bit of an exaggeration ‘cos nothing can be compared to the work load that mom is dealing. So…  I’m just gonna go with very tired. Heh!

Naj has been an excellent help when my computer’s down. I am definitely contented to befriend her! Though she can be annoyingly funny at times, her stable state of mind is of a delight company. If I pass my Lab Management UT with colours with wings, large portion of it is due to her kindness for helping me out with my study. She makes sure she send sufficient stuffs to me via email the day before so that I have enough materials to study. I am grateful and pleased to have her as my friend! Indeed she’s been brought up in a good family :))

Naj! If you are reading this,  I really do appreciate it very much!! ❤ i buy you 3 packets of Gummy Bears if I get A for UT okay:)

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Study Partner !

 

Of a total opposite of a helpful friend, Aqeem is soo being a total ass for distracting me from study by throwing blue tack onto my laptop.  After attended the discussion forum, we ( me, Naj, Lili, Khalis & Aqeem) decided to have lunch and continue studying for our lab management UT afterwards. We spend our lunch reminiscing of the past; Sri Lanka trip. Definitely a lunch to remember!  Then, during study time, Lili and Aqeem sat together behind Najwa and I. Khalis was infront of us. What i thought would be a productive and effective time for study with them…wasn’t much of a productive time spent on studying.  Aqeem stealthily threw blue tack onto my laptop screen. I don’t notice until the blue tack builds up on my screen or when either Lili or Aqeem gave a casual remark like ” Fit, cantik laptop” -_-

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LOOK CLOSER!!

 

HAHHAHA! Najwa pun tak terlepas dari kene serang.  I think we made a nuisance of ourselves because as crowded as the library can go, the tables and chairs near us were empty. People decided not to be near the crazy students. “Siao ting tong”

Then, Aqeem took out this clever tool which can attach two different kinds of surface together..(like attach hp to the inner walls of the car or something)  ( I don’t know the right term for it) and throw and huge freaking thing onto my laptop when I got my back turn from him. It sticks on my screen! I got shocked la because it has a shattering sound to it.. Laptop’s fine… I was not. Naj and the couple covered their mouths  from laughing too loudly because apparently ” my expression was priceless”

Idiot.

Najwa took that black thing and experiment it on different kinds of surfaces. And guess what people?  She decided to try to stick it on my glasses. So, she threw that black thing on my face and due to the short distance and her excellent aim, it. freaking. sticks. on. my. spectacles.

Idiot. The ‘performance’ received a roaring laughter from everyone…even khalis…. I looked stupid sia.

She begged me to throw it one my face another time and aqeem continue to mercilessly attacked us with his blue tack. Never felt so bullied before in my entire life. Hmmphff….

Hahahhahahah!! Why do i have such weird crazy gerek friends??? So yeah. Crazy afternoon!

On a serious note, I need to get back to studying antibiotics for tmr’s gdp.

All in all, in the midst of a stressful week I thank YA Rabb for surround me with such funny and good friends!  Alhamdulillah!!!

Back to books!!

Midpoint Update: November has been kind

Or maybe I choose to feel more optimistic rather than letting things get into my head and ruin my weeks. 😀

Anyways, I am pretty motivated to do well this month. This could probably results from a string of fortunate events that have occurred:

1) Passed GDP counselling (1 to 1 with JC)

2) Completed my turn of counselling (during class) for the topic on ASTHMA

3) Found Faber Castell Pens!

4) Walked through a bad storm (it’s fortunate and I’ll tell you why)

5) Shopping at POPLOOK (at last!)

ALHAMDULILLAH!! Alhamdulillah! Many praises to Allah for these blessings!

Among the stresses and the days that demands a lot from me, I am still able to find my smile.

First and foremost, I totally did not expect to pass my GDP counselling first time off. In all honesty, I think i did badly because I took so long to decipher the prescription and checking if there is any interactions/drugs duplication and whatnot on the prescription. To say that it was stressful for that 30 min Counselling test, I wouldn’t think it that way because it was counter balance with JC trying to light up the mood by chatting about other stuffs. A bit distracting but manageable. At the end of the Counselling test, JC mentioned that he was impressed that I am able to manage to link up the drugs and the conditions of the patient and he can tell that I know what I am doing / saying by the way I look up for the drugs in BNF through the system and not just bullshitting my way through…

I was of course shell shocked when he feedback that to me. I mean c’mon Faci… I was able to pass because of the following questions (after analyzing the prescription ) you asked, right? Because I feel that my level of knowledge is shallow as compared to my friend, Aisha. Her Counselling test was few hours before mine and she told me about how well her’s end up. It did not come as logical to me when she didn’t pass but I do. So, I felt guilty for passing after seeing how upset she was after her test with swollen red eyes. I didn’t text her right away about my result. I feel double guilty when she finally got to find out about my result and congratulate me through a friend. A guilty conscience needs to accuser. I  feel bad about it still.

On a brighter note, I clear my counselling test 1 to 1 with JC.

Rumors has it that a lot of people failed the test and a handful cried after it. Oral test can be overwhelming and demanding than it appears to be. I don’t blame them for feeling that way because I too was on the verge on saying ” Faci, I want to give up” during the test. This is one of the few moments where I thank myself for not saying my thoughts out loud.

Counselling during class was not bad too. I’d got the topic on asthma and it was…easy. I cannot afford to be too complacent in JC’s class so I guess it was okay. He tested me on counselling on the techniques of Inhaler device. I thought I counsel patient well.. but in the end I got shoot down because I mix up between fungal and bacterial growth if patient don’t gurgle mouth after inhaling corticosteroid for their long term preventive asthma therapy. Oral thrush = fungal growth. Got it.

So, my turn of counselling in class is over! Yay! But I’d still have tons of works to do. We still have to video the counselor on counselling on ALL the different types of inhaler devices as a team effort. One shot. That’s it. Actually, my team did it once but we encountered a glitch. As I was nearing to the end of my counselling in the video, my hands slip and the Accuhaler device fly out from my grip. It dropped dramatically on the floor. Funny as hell. We couldnt retake the video shooting because I was out of time. So we planned to do it again next Wednesday. Oh Man… Pray that everything ends up smoothly… It still made me happy 🙂

Yesterday, on my Friday class, Aqeem asked if Viagra can be swallowed out of the blue. All heads turn to him. Silence followed afterwards. We burst out laughing when he showed us the pen that got during his Internship. Other’s thn follow suit showing me the ‘special’ pen they got during their Internship.

 

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“THEY COME IN PENS TOO!!!”

Talking about pens… I am so delighted to announce that I have found Popular branch that sell my beloved brand of pen! Causeway Point! Hahah! All these while it was under my nose… hahahah!! Woots Check out my FABER CASTELL pens below!

 

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All time favourite pens

Apart from the smooth writing i get, I like the design too! You might see me often in Causeway point Popular soon!

MOVING ON!

I mentioned earlier about walking through a storm earlier on. I feel that it’s an eye opener for me. So this happened after school when we were otw to bus interchange. It didn’t came to our mind to wait for the rain to stop before proceed. I guess we were all mentally tired after a day of GDP. Half way through the walk, the winds started to pick up speed, downpours become heavy and many burst of bright lights of lightning streak across the sky. Thunders heard in matters of seconds afterward. It goes to show how near we are to them lightnings! Visibility was up to only 5 metres in front. Road cones and signage started to fall. I grew uneasy with the situation. At that point my friends and I were climbing the second overhead bridge and we dont dare to cross it because firstly, I was personally scared and was convinced that the tree next to the bridge will fall & hit the bridge in the process and secondly the wind mercilessly blow the rain into the shelter which obstructs our visibility point. AllahuAkbar! How scared was I! My heart was in constant mode of zikir. I have never ever been in such a weather in singopore!  At that point my friends and I were drenched to the skin despite walking under the shelter… Kesejukkan terasa hingga dalam tulang. We only started to cross the bridge after we saw this guy in grey jubah brave through the cold and storm.

Once we finally reached the Bus Interchange safely, Aisha and I decided to walked around the mall to dry ourselves. We werent completely dry so when I got in the bus, the blast of cold air from the bus air con chills me to the core.

I did went into reflection mode during the walk to the bus interchange. Death keeps no calender. I could have died on my way home because there were tons of hazards that could take my life away but no… Allah still wants me to live. The whole journey gets it into me ah… AllahuAkbar.. I cant express it in words of gratitude about that whole event…

If Allah wants it to happen, it will and nothing will stop it for Allah is GOD of the universe. 

It’s an eye opener. I hope I treasure the seconds, hours, days , months, years before my time to part from this world. May Allah protect us all. Amin!

To sum everything up, this is a great month as there are a lot of things to gain from. Alhamdullilah! Alhamdullilah! Alhamdullilah!

I saw a quote a friend of mine shared on facebook and i will end this post off with it:

“A hopeless man see difficulty in every chances but a hopeful man see chances in every difficulty”

 

 

Pass!

I am fill with joy right this very moment! I pass my IE (internal Evaluation) on Basic Theory of driving! Woots!! *Throw confetti at myself* 94%  !!

If I had not fail my e-Trial Tests, I would not be this happy to embrace my score! Because failures and struggles increase the value of success! *my Socrates mode on*  Hahaha!

A huge thanks to my dad for sending me off to Ubi CDC upon knowing that I will be late if I take the public transport despite him being late for work. Thanking you isn’t enough to express my gratitude. I will, in time, show you that I can become an independent woman. Love you!

But my level of happiness decreases two bars lower upon knowing that I still have my Basic Theory Test (BTT) to sit for… Anddd to sour-up the situation even more, the closest  date that I can book for it is 2 months from now…-_- ||| Ha to the Ha to the Ha.

I have around 8 more months to get my license before i need to renew my membership. But I doubt I can manage everything in such a tight amount of time. I have my Riding Theory lessons, Tests and the Practical part… Haiyoooo Where got time??

This is what happens when you abuse the free time you have during the holidays..

Nevertheless.

I will still be happy for myself for the scores that I have achieve. And for future achievements. In Sha Allah!

Alhamdulillah for passing! 

May Allah swt ease our affairs!

Yan